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50 Days until 50: Day 22

June 7, 2020 Self care Sunday It has been a trying couple of weeks. Today I focused on getting some mental rest. I listened to music and watched some of my favorite movies and tried not to think about anything. … Continue reading

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50 Days until 50: Day 23

June 6, 2020 It’s time to talk Remove the phrase I don’t see colorSo we can truly see each other And focus on what lies within and not be distracted by melanin Our hearts beatOur blood flowsWe celebrate highsAnd experience … Continue reading

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50 Days until 50: Day 24

June 5, 2020 Joy Today I was riding in my car with the A/C on blasting my music and for a brief moment I felt happy and light. For a brief moment the weight of everything going on in the … Continue reading

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50 Days until 50: Day 25

June 4, 2020 I wonder This is going to be a real short and random post. I was listening to Super Cat’s Bad Boy remix of Dolly My Baby and in Third Eye’s verse he says “There is no way … Continue reading

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50 Days until 50: Day 26

June 3, 2020 Emotional eating My goal was to lose 20lbs by my 50th birthday. I started in March and I was doing pretty good and then, boom! Quarantine. Fear of the unknown, panic and one extreme change after another … Continue reading

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50 Days until 50: Day 27

June 2, 2020 #blackouttuesday

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50 Days until 50: Day 28

June 1, 2020 I got an AARP membership application and I don’t know how to feel about it Really? I’m going to be a member of AARP (I’m joining, they have good benefits). I wasn’t expecting this until about 60-65, … Continue reading

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50 Days until 50: Day 29

May 31, 2020 Don’t put doubt in your desire With all that is going on in the world it’s easy to want to give up and say “what’s the point “. But now more than ever pursuing our dreams and … Continue reading

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50 Days until 50: Day 30

May 30, 2020 One month away from my 50th birthday Damn, I’ll be 50 in 30 days and I feel the pressure to achieve all the goals I wanted to reach by the time I turned 50. Some of the … Continue reading

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50 Days until 50: Day 31

May 29, 2020 Heavy Today is not a good day, The weight of sadness and despair is eating my soul away, Hope is thin, rage building within, No sleep , no peace, The uneasiness does not cease, My fears for … Continue reading

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